TOUGH! :(

hello stranger!

today i just want to share what's on my mind bcs i really down feeling like this.

first of all, you guys should know that my family have a really bad economy condition. i know this kind of condition feel so usual in life :(

yes since i graduated from elementary school my life go down and down til now. i don't know what's really wrong about this life, i am hoping so much that my life will be back to where it was. but, it;s just a kind of dream that i don't even know will it be happen or not.

i'm just give up, tired of being like this, tired of being so "economical person", tired of everything in my life. i'm kinda wanna skip this until i have to go to work, bcs basically i'm just graduated from my first college.

it's not gonna be so hard if i'm not the first child in my family. i have 2 little brother and sister that i should think about. my parent have no job for sure, my neighborhood or big family don't even know that we really in this kind of situation bcs my mom said that Allah has risen up our face to public, so they don't think that we are kind of poor like this :(

since then, my mom always worried about our economic, it always about "will we survived?" "from who our family can face this life?" "we should think twice or maybe hundread time to buy something that we really need" "only miracle from god that can save us alive".

i am so much worried about that too, i am overthinking about what my mom said to me, about everything that happen in this family bcs i'm the first child that will be responsible to my brother and sister. but i can't make any differences bcs i have no job.

i'm tired of being like this, i'm tired of overthinking something, and so on. the point is, i have a boyfriend that will always listen every complain and teardrop in this life. but, i realize that he will not make any difference, i realize that i just ruin him every single day. i love him, i want to make him happy, i can't pushing back and forth for no reason to him, he deserves more to be happy bcs he's a kind man. but it so hard not to ruin him, so hard not to tell him what happen to me or my feeling, i'm so sorry :( i'll try my best to control my feeling dit, i'm so sorry you shouldn't hear the story of my life bcs it's too bitter :(

anyway i want to say HAPPY 34TH MONTHVERSARY dit, may the happiness come to us and always there for us :) i know you wouldn't read this till you suddenly remember that i have a blog hehe :)

P.S. : so sorry for a bad english, i'm just trying and still learn to improve my english :)

have a nice day everyone!

IT'S BEEN 2 YEARS!

ADITYA MAHADIKA DARYANTO

It's officially 2 years (or more), but actually on 5 january 2016. Thankyou for always being my lover, bestfriend, partner, and everything. The only person that will not mad to me even i made so many mistake. The only person that will listen to your daily stories and never get bored. The only one that will spending hours to talk, hangout, eat, photo, or whatever with no doubt. And so on.

Start with STRANGER (he-solo, me-jakarta) than we met to be FRIENDS, and our heart choose that we should be together became COUPLE.

So much thanks to this man, because he teach me how life is :)

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride.

PGP (Penting Gak Penting) Cafe

Actually visit this cafe for such a month ago, but i newly have time to post something on my blog (yeayyyyy).

Recently i like to open the apps called "zomato" for searching a place to eat and take a photo, andddd i found that in my dorm area (bintaro) there's a cafe that not many know about this but it's pretty place. So, i decided to go there with my friend. And here they are...

We're not forget to take OOTD pictures

Last, a photo by PGP waitress xoxo

I really like the ambience there. Really cozy place that make me don't want to leave. About their taste of food, i ordered big breakfast and virgin mojito. Big breakfast really made my day (contain of half cooked egg, bacon, saussage, mushroom, bread, salad) and the virgin mojito such a refreshment drink but maybe i can make it (formula of virgin mojito = sprite + mint leaves + citrus). here the photo of food, but i'm not expert to take a photo of food, forgive me :'

thankyou for visiting, hope this informed you well :)


PGP Cafe
Jalan Delima Jaya no.40
Ciputat Timur, Tangerang
open hours : 7 to 21 (tue-sun)
IG : pgpcafe

voilaaa bloggers!

sooooo loooongggggg, i haven't post something to you guys :)
i have a bunch of story in my life that you must know for sure, here it is...

i'm in 12 grade now, you know what it means?
yeah it means that you will pass the national exam, and another exam to go to your university. but, i don't know why i'm so scared but i don't do nothing, it's priceless!
all i have do was already a mess, maybe you don't get it but, i mean my 11 grade was really a mess, and if i could wish something, i want a time machine where i can make it better :"

but its ALREADY HAPPENING ryt?
i wanna shout out load and cry, and....
okay it's too late babe :"

i wish i can find my good mood in the education part like when i was in JHS. the only one that mess my school is.... online shop :" yeah it's kinda a breaker mood for study, and it getting worst until now.
i want to leave it but it's too priceless, i think what i'm already done it's too expensive to leave it. it's like a hero that leave their job.

i wish, i wish, and i wish
i could find my assistant hahaha, whatta...
but it's true, i need an assistant to continue my online shop but i don't have idea who will continue it.

the last wish is find the real me, and live it like what i want, couse YOLO :D. i want to be a succes woman and i must study harder than i could ever done.

thanks xoxoxo!

The Rainbow of Anya and Shaya

By Cathy Predmore

A long time ago when the earth was young, Anya the daughter of sunshine, and Shaya the son of rain, were the best of friends. They were very different but both children of nature whose spirits soared together in the soft growing new world.
Anya was fair and luminous with light. She had long golden hair and a sunny aura of happiness. Shaya was as dark and wild as a storm cloud. He could be loud like thunder or soft and steady as spring rain. Shaya’s cloudy nature would shade Anya’s sunshine and together they made a perfect place of peace.
During the time of creation, their days were were filled with lovely adventures. Anya and Shaya ran through fragrant fields of flowers newly grown by the earth. They ate sweet plums, drank cool water, and held their faces up to the warm light from the shinning sun. Shaya would ride on top of trees as they pushed their way up through the soil, while Anya chased falling leaves which were whirled about by the wind. They swam in the salty blue sea and dived deep into its depths. Shaya dreamed with dolphins and Anya strung necklaces of starfish and sea shells. They lay side by side on the shore of the water; gazing up into the sky and watching young birds learning to fly.
The children of sunshine and rain were known to all of nature’s elements: earth, air, fire, and water. They were born into earth’s nurturing embrace and feasted on her fertile harvests. Air breathed life into the world and blew away their troubles, while water cleansed and purified all around them. Fire was the fiercest of the elements with the ability to both create and end life. Anya and Shaya were afraid of fire and thankful that it didn’t often visit the land. Instead, it stayed in the middle of the earth where it burned and blazed in its center.
Time passed and finally the world was formed. The land was fruitful, the waters were full, and the sky was clear. Earth gave birth to mankind, who took his rightful place, and it became time for Anya and Shaya to join the elements from which they came. Anya was to become one with the shining light, while Shaya had to take his place among the clouds. When the day came and they needed to part, Anya’s bright beauty embraced Shaya’s stormy spirit. They clung to each other with such sadness that even the air’s strongest wind could not carry it away. The Earth tried to comfort them and water wash away their grief but nothing could give them solace. It was only the threat of fire which finally divided them.
Sunshine and rain thought their children would grow to accept this separation but it was not to be. In the kingdom of the clouds, Shaya wept rain for weeks on end until his grief flooded the ground below. Anya’s light dimmed and her sadness sent shadow over the land.
The elements converged to help these special friends. While it was not possible to change Anya and Shaya’s place in nature, sunlight and rain could be allowed to meet for many magical moments. Shaya’s raindrops and Anya sunshine came together and their joy at being reunited created a burst of colors which arched through the sky for all to see. Their union came to be called a rainbow. Today those who catch sight of a rainbow wonder at its beauty and feel the happiness of Anya and Shaya, who are with each other once again.